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Interests: Spending time with my beautiful wife and son, going for long rides on my motorcycle when I'm not in Iraq. Having fun with family and friends. Eventually getting out of the military and pursuing something more fun.
Expertise: Sadly...I can't really claim an expertise other than the "Jack of all trades" due to my time in the military.
Occupation: Currently...a deployed soldier


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Member Since: 10/8/2006

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

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Nimrod
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   DSCF0984 Yeah...I hadn't planned on posting any pics but I finally got around to taking some here. This is of me in the gym with LT. B. He's asian but don't let that fool you! He has absolutely no natural talent at taking pictures which usually comes as second nature to most asians. There were more pics of me and him at the gym but this was the only pic of myself that I liked and didn't look so retarded in despite what your thoughts might be

DSCF0936This is the wonderful ride that I get to drive just about everyday. Not so bad actually, its a lot better than what I had last time. It actually has doors that might withstand a bullet or two. It has air conditioning which I definitely did not have last time and would've appreciated. DSCF0939

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And this right here is the inside of the wonderful life-saving yet aging and out dated piece of military crap. As you can see, there really isn't very much to the inside of a HUMVEE which is actually spelled HMWVV...I think. The ones that the MP's have are a little bit better but still not as great. I don't know if the rest of the world really knows this but the Iraqi army receives the same types of Humvees as our military does...but better. They have all of the new up armored vehicles while some of our troops are traveling in less than they are supposed to. It makes me sick to my stomach to know that these spineless, unmotivated peoples are receiving the same if not better equipment than my brothers in arms. Its apalling to know that we are spending millions on these people and they have really no desire of making things better for themselves. I don't think that all of them think this way of course but a very good majority of them do. If I had a chance to change the way things were in my country I'd more than likely do what ever it took to make things better. I don't think that every one in this country thinks well enough to make things better. 100_0510

 

 

This right here was in Kuwait before I even got into country. I'm only 39 days away from being back in Kuwait and I can hardly wait. Poopin

 

I can't wait to see this little monkey. I think he looks a lot like me...don't you think?


Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Hello all,

          Sorry it's been forever since I last put anything in here. I came across this article on msnbc today and thought of all of my friends as well as my wife's. It is definitely an eye opener so you guys should read this:

 

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/18644781/from/ET/


Monday, February 26, 2007

The blog fuzz...

Hello every body...it's been awhile since my last entry. I've been so busy here that it's sometimes hard to even get a word in with my wife. For all of you that know me and have this xanga know that I'm in the military and presently Iraq. What a lot of you don't know and probably could never understand is that life over here is very diverse. I don't mean culturally of course but more or less on an individual level. Take me for instance, I am a cook by trade, my experiences here in Iraq are going to differ a lot from those of say and infantryman's. I don't have to go out the wire or on convoys which I'm totally fine with. If I wanted to do that sort of stuff then I would've joined the infantry or the marines. I can't complain about my life here. I have it really well and take full advantage of the luxurys that I have here. But, the one thing that does piss me of is that since it really isn't that horrible here for those of us that aren't infantry there sure is a whole lot of griping going on. It mostly has to do with the first-timers here and the pussy's that regret signing up for this. I just don't know what some of these people were thinking when they signed up. It even says on the contract what you'd be giving up, of course it was all in legal jargan and an 18 yr old fresh out of high school will more than likely not know what the hell it was saying. Or you were just retarded and really needed the military because you couldn't make anything of yourself on the civilian side. These people are referred to as institutionalized, its the same thing that happens to inmates of life sentences. They grow accustomed to a certain life-style in prison that when their parole goes through and they finally get the freedom that they've wanted for years, they don't know how to act or relate to people in the civilian sector. I call these people lifers, they need the military to keep them out of trouble or just payed. I can understand if a person is using the military for his or her benefit at the time due to an extenuating circumstance (like yours truly) so they can get ahead or have some money to start off with. That, I understand...but there are just some people that need the military but aren't any good at it. I was having a discussion with one of my buddies here about how different the army is from when we first enlisted. In the eight yrs that I've been in the army there has been so much that has changed that its hard for one to fathom. I went to a gender pure basic training, FT Benning, one of the last gender pure training grounds in the military. Don't get me wrong, I love women and they definitely add to the military's diversity. I'm just stating the fact that this military isn't the same as when I came in. There are a lot of things that are wrong with the military and it really stems from the top down. And when I mean the top I mean the president down to the lowest ranking person. I say this because if the president would raise the income level of his armed services he would keep more of his fighting force instead of losing them (also yours truly). It is people like me that the military needs. I am young, smart and in a position to make a difference in my unit if not in the military. But instead, I will be chosing to leave the military all together and start a civilian career due to the meager paycheck I am given. I will be leaving with all this experience and using it else where, the military needs to have experienced individuals leading its armed forces. I digress though, I think I've gotten off track of what I originally wanted to say, plus I am tired and need to catch a nap. later


Sunday, December 31, 2006

Extremely vivid dream!!!

Hello again folks. Sette has a lot of friends and family. I'm not really used to having so many names and faces to remember. Even after a little over three yrs in our relationship. So, I had this dream just now and it involved a lot of people that I probably know or were fabricated through my imagination. I always tell Sette that my dreams always seem to play out like a movie. And this one is no exception. I'll try to remember it in its entirety. Enjoy:

So, it starts off with me, Brian Troudy (Gene's boyfriend) Gene, and my sister. Troudy's driving and for some reason we are lost. Right there and then I knew even in the dream that I was dreaming. I knew this because I knew that in reality Troudy would never get lost. He has that nifty little road map that I seem to forget the name to in his supra and in the gas efficient car that I also forget the name to right now.

       I think we were in his supra and Gene was in the front seat asking me where we were. Looking at our surroundings I realized that we were on PCH. It wasn't really hard to come up with this assumption because the ocean was right in front of us and either north or south would be to our immediate left or right but for some reason the street signs said east or west. It really confused me in my dream, I guess it comes from years of living by the beach and knowing a little more than the average person about PCH. So, Gene asked me for directions and she looked at Troudy how Sette would look at me after getting lost and not asking for directions. It was really funny, I wish we had the technology to record dreams. This one would be great to show at parties.

      So this is all happening and staying true to my knowledge of PCH I tell Troudy to go right. I told you already how my dreams seem to play out like a movie right! So the next scene as it were, was of Troudy, Gene and myself. We were all driving different cars and I was driving my motorcycle. We stopped off to the side of the freeway and I noticed that Troudy was driving some beat up van with a baby seat in the back. Gene was driving an SUV with my sister in the passengers seat. Ironic actually, only the ones that went to AX would know what I'm talking about.

      I don't know how we ended up in separate vehicles but we did. So after that we drive more but I'm not with the same people anymore and instead of driving North we're driving south. We were driving in some area that I'm sure I've passed in real life but never stopped off in so it was unfamiliar to me. I guess I was some kind of body guard or guardian of some sort. I was supposed to guard this one boy who kept on running away from me because he thought that I was a bad guy. There were also other people after him and I think that they were bad. So I guess I was undercover because I was acting like I didn't know Sette and I think she understood too.

     This kid, was a pain in the ass!!! I had to run everywhere to find him. I even ran after him and this bad guy that was also after him but I passed him up and caught up with the kid. He hopped onto a bus and I went after him. The other guy didn't catch up, we left him in the dust. I remember being mad at him on the bus and asking him why he would do such a thing. I guess he didn't know any better. After that, we came into some goth town which I'm sure exists somewhere but not to my dreams specifications I'm sure but who knows. 

     And wouldn't you know it, the damn kid ran on me again and I had to chase him up this damn hill. Some people dream that they have superhuman abilities in their dreams and I have sometimes as well. This wasn't one of those times. If anything, I was feeling guilty because in my dream I was dying going up this damn hill but I made it. I made it into an area that I recognized from real life. It was a plaza that I'm sure Troudy passes almost everyday. It was the shopping area that I used to pass almost everyday to go home when I lived in diamond bar. The Albertson's was on the right  and the Pho' house where I used to eat all the time when I was really poor was there too.

      For some reason the kid was not on my mind presently so I had Pho' with one of Sette's uncles. I don't know which one and I actually don't think he was but in the dream he was one of her uncle's. He was arguing with me and wanted to know why I ordered the same thing all of the time. I actually think this was one of Sette's complaints when I was home but for all intensive purposes it was used in my dream by her uncle. I don't remember eating Pho' with him and it kind of panned out of that scene into the next. I was looking for that damn kid again and I found him but he didn't know I was there so I decided to just hang back and follow him. He looked happy, he was with a bunch of other kids. I don't know if he was related to them but he seemed happy nonetheless.

       I followed him and his friends up and down this hill until he realized that I was there and started running away with his friends. They had a good head start on me and I lost them for a little while but caught up again down in some city. It looked like downtown Long Beach or something and there were a lot of people crowded around some dance group. I was curious so I decided to get a closer look. I got to the front of the crowd and looked on in to the multitude of dancers and who should I see. Susette!!! I had so much emotion pinned up inside of me. She looked so beautiful dancing there. She stole a glimpse over to me and smiled. This was one of those dreams where you knew each other like I said earlier but for some reason Sette knew that I was undercover or something so she didn't make a scene. 

       Her mother was also there and pulled me towards Sette just like they do when they are having a show and they pull people from the crowd to dance with them. It was nice to see Sette again but my duties became pressing again and I left. By this time the trail had run cold and I lost the kid for the time being. I decided to go through the neighborhood and found a house. I didn't know who was living here but I only assume it was one of our families because I went straight in. One of Sette's cousins was there taking care of Kai. I was especially surprised to see Kai. He had gotten bigger from what I remembered thinking back to when I was home. He was a chubby little thing but I recognized him. Sette's cousin had just finished giving him his first haircut I guess? I scooped him up in my arms and held him for awhile. I seemed to forget everything for the time being. I went into the living room with him in my arms and saw that there was a laptop on the table.

      I opened it up, (I guess it was mine) and turned it on. It started playing a video immediately. It looked like a family gathering, there were a lot of people there. The video centered on Sette and someone else, I couldn't make out her face and I don't want to make any assumptions for fear of repercussions. They both flashed me their bra's and started walking away in the video. But it was weird, the video turned into reality in the dream for a little bit. I can only assume that it was like a flashback for me or something. I remember feeling really lonely at the moment because it was just me and Kai, and then just me I think. I don't remember when Kai left the picture. This is pretty much the end of the dream. All I remember is sitting in that house, going through my emotions. Although, right before I woke up I remember sleeping in bed with Sette, holding her close and never once letting go. I was really emotional about this too. I think in my subconscious I knew where I really was and I woke up with that feeling. I woke up with my arms as if they were around Susette. It was a hard reality to wake up to. I hope you enjoy my dream.

Later...


Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Bored

So its been a while now since I've written in this thing. I would write in my journal but I just don't do it. In fact, the last time that I wrote in it was when Sette and I found out we were having Kai! That was almost seven months ago now. I'm actually lucky to be able to write on my xanga site right now. The last server didn't allow me to even get on this site. But I guess only porn and MySpace are restricted now. I can actually get to my gmail too now. Well, the fuzz is here...I'll write more later. Tah!!



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